"Would Donald gang?" and keek'd' in Donald's face, While Donald blink'd with meditative gaze,
As if he knew full brawly what we said, And ponder'd o'er it, wiser far than we. But how I answer'd, how explain'd these themes, I know not. Oft I could not speak at all. Yet every question made me think of things Forgotten, puzzled so, and when I strove To reason, puzzled me so much the more, That, flinging logic to the winds, I went Straight onward to the mark in Willie's way, Took most for granted, laid down premises Of Faith, imagined, gave my wit the reins, And oft on nights at e'en, to my surprise, Felt palpably an angel's glowing face Glimmering down upon me, while mine eyes Dimm'd their old orbs with tears that came unbid To bear the glory of the light they saw.
So summer pass'd. Yon chestnut at the door Scatter'd its burnish'd leaves and made a sound Of wind among its branches.
Came Willie, seldom going home again
Till near the sunset: wet or dry he came : Oft in the rainy weather carrying
A big umbrella, under which he walk'd- A little fairy in a parachute,
Blown hither, thither, at the wind's wild will. Pleased was my heart to see his pallid cheeks Were gathering rosy posies, that his eyes Were softer and less sad. Then, with a gust, Old Winter tumbled shrieking from the hills, His white hair blowing in the wind.
Where Willie's mother lives is scarce a mile
From yonder hallan, if you take a cut Before you reach the village, crossing o'er
Green meadows till you reach the road again ; But he who thither goes along the road Loses a reaper's mile. The summer long
Wee Willie came and went across the fields: He loved the smell of flowers and grass, the sight Of cows and sheep, the changing stalks of wheat, And he was weak and small. When winter came, Still caring not a straw for wind or rain, Came Willie and the collie; till by night Down fell the snow, and fell three nights and days, Then ceased, The ground was white and ankle-deep; The window of the school was threaded o'er With flowers of hueless ice-Frost's unseen hands Prick'd you from head to foot with tinging heat; The shouting urchins, yonder on the green, Play'd snowballs. In the school a cheery fire Was kindled every day, and every day When Willie came he had the warmest seat, And every day old Donald, punctual, came To join us, after labour, in the lowe.
Three days and nights the snow had mistily fall'n. It lay long miles along the country-side, White, awful, silent. In the keen cold air There was a hush, a sleepless silentness, And 'mid it all, upraising eyes, you felt God's breath upon your face; and in your blood, Though you were cold to touch, was flaming fire, Such as within the bowels of the earth
Burnt at the bones of ice, and wreath'd them round With grass ungrown.
One day in school I saw, Through threaded window-panes, soft, snowy flakes Swim with unquiet motion, mistily, slowly, At intervals; but when the boys were gone, And in ran Donald with a dripping nose, The air was clear and grey as glass. An hour Sat Willie, Donald, and myself around
The murmuring fire, and then with tender hand I wrapt a comforter round Willie's throat, Button'd his coat around him close and warm, And off he ran with Donald, happy-eyed And merry, leaving fairy prints of feet
Behind him on the snow. I watch'd them fade Round the white curve, and, turning with a sigh, Came in to sort the room and smoke a pipe Before the fire. Here, dreamingly and alone, I sat and smoked, and in the fire saw clear The norland mountains, white and cold with snow That crumbled silently, and moved, and changed,— When suddenly the air grew sick and dark, And from the distance came a hollow sound, A murmur like the moan of far-off seas.
I started to my feet, look'd out, and knew The winter wind was whistling from the clouds To lash the snow-clothed plain, and to myself I prophesied a storm before the night. Then with an icy pain, an eldritch gleam, I thought of Willie; but I cheer'd my heart, "He's home, and with his mother, long ere this!" While thus I stood the hollow murmur grew Deeper, the wold grew darker, and the snow Rush'd downward, whirling in a shadowy mist. I walk'd to yonder door and open'd it.
Whirr! the wind swung it from me with a clang, And in upon me with an iron-like crash
Swoop'd in the drift. With pinch'd sharp face I gazed Out on the storm! Dark, dark was all! A mist, A blinding, whirling mist, of chilly snow,
The falling and the driven; for the wind Swept round and round in clouds upon the earth, And birm'd the deathly drift aloft with moans, Till all was swooning darkness. Far above A voice was shrieking, like a human cry.
I closed the door, and turn'd me to the fire,
With something on my heart--a load—a sense Of an impending pain. Down the broad lum1 Came melting flakes that hiss'd upon the coal; Under my eyelids blew the blinding smoke, And for a time I sat like one bewitch'd, Still as a stone. The lonely room grew dark, The flickering fire threw phantoms of the snow Along the floor and on the walls around; The melancholy ticking of the clock
Was like the beating of my heart. But, hush! Above the moaning of the wind I heard A sudden scraping at the door; my heart Stood still and listen'd; and with that there rose An awsome howl, shrill as a dying screech,
And scrape-scrape-scrape, the sound beyond the door; I could not think-I could not breathe- —a dark, Awful foreboding gript me like a hand, As opening the door I gazed straight out, Saw nothing, till I felt against my knees
Something that moved, and heard a moaning sound- Then, panting, moaning, o'er the threshold leapt, Donald the dog, alone, and white with snow.
Down, Donald! down, old man! Sir, look at him I swear he knows the meaning of my words, And tho' he cannot speak, his heart is full! See now! see now! he puts his cold black nose Into my palm and whines! he knows, he knows! Would speak, and cannot, but he minds that night!
The terror of my heart seem'd choking me: Dumbly I stared and wildly at the dog, Who gazed into my face and whined and moan'd, Leapt at the door, then touch'd me with his paws, And lastly, gript my coat between his teeth, And pull'd and pull'd, whiles growling, whining whiles, Till fairly madden'd, in bewilder'd fear,
I let him drag me through the banging door
Out to the whirling storm. Bareheaded, wild, The wind and snow-drift beating on my face, Blowing me hither, thither, with the dog, I dash'd along the road. What follow'd seem'd An eerie,1 eerie dream !—a world of snow, A sky of wind, a whirling, howling mist Which swam around with hundred sickly eyes; And Donald dragging, dragging, beaten, bruised, Leading me on to something that I fear'd- An awful something, and I knew not what! On, on, and farther on, and still the snow Whirling, the tempest moaning! Then I mind Of groping, groping in the shadowy light, And Donald by me burrowing with his nose And whining. Next a darkness, blank and deep! But then I mind of tearing thro' the storm, Stumbling and tripping, blind and deaf and dumb, And holding to my heart an icy load
I clutch'd with freezing fingers. Far away- It seem'd long miles on miles away-I saw A yellow light-unto that light I tore- And last, remember opening a door And falling, dazzled by a blinding gleam Of human faces and a flaming fire, And with a crash of voices in my ears Fading away into a world of snow.
When I awaken'd to myself, I lay In my own bed at home. I started up As from an evil dream and look'd around, And to my side came one, a neighbour's wife, Mother to two young lads I taught in school. With hollow, hollow voice I question'd her, And soon knew all : how a long night had pass'd Since, with a lifeless laddie in my arms, I stumbled, horror-stricken, swooning, wild Into a ploughman's cottage: at my side, My coat between his teeth, a dog; and how
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